#In2010 - My Goals for the Year of 2010

It's about that time of year when people start asking about New Years resolutions.. Eh, well,, we all either make them, or don't bother.. And those of us who make them end up taking some things off the list or not really fullfilling everything.. I for one know I won't set myself up for that.. So I set goals within my means.. But this year,, I want to make an attitude change,, maybe not a complete change,, but a few tweaks would be sufficient.. Let's start ...

1. Enhance and correcting my "I don't give a fuck" attitude.

    Okay,, well,, it's not like I have a bad attitude or anything but to some people I may come across as mean because I don't seem to care about too much. In reality, I do, but I just have a heavy case of nonchalantness.. So yeah.. Towards the end of 09 I REALLY started putting my "I don't give a fuck" attitude into action. So many things were going on and the only way to bypass it and let it roll off of my back was to simply say .. "Eh, Fuck it". But I DID use that method in situations that I couldve done something better and in the upcoming year,, I plan to "correct" that.. I know that sometimes I end up hurting people feelings that way. So I'll work on that.. But I also plan on putting it into effect in more areas of my life. That'll be fun.

2. Keeping my freaking mouth closed!

   I mean this in the sense of,, "thinking before I speak". Since I have this really smart mouth, I usually just let my smart remarks roll out without thinking about the effect they may have. It's so hard to keep them in but I've been working towards that for the past month. I also mean this to say that I should just shutup when people are talking about someone aka gossiping .. Or anything else.. I'll just sit and nod.. Because when push comes to shove I WONT be in the middle of that shit.

3. Be more talkative.

   Even with me being a smart mouth,, I'm not the super talkative type. I mean,, I'm not HELLA shy like when people don't speak at all to people they don't know. I'll speak to u in a minute,, no problem... But I don't really hold much conversation. It's a habit I have to kick. I'm fairly outgoing but I need to be like.. Awesomely outgoing.. So #in2020 I'm going to crank my personality up a notch and be a little more out there.

4. Forget and forgive the bad things that happened #in2009.

Yeah, alot of SHIT when down #in2009 and it's changed a hole bunch of things. Some for better, some for worse,, but all in all.. It still contributed to the person I am today.. Which is a way better person I knew Before 2009 began. So I'm thankful for what I do have. Always. I usually look on the brightside of any situation even in the worst of them. It's my only way of remaining sane.

5. Budget Better

That's self explainitory. I'm a spender... It's also a bad habit that must GO

6. Lose Weight.


I mean... I'm not really heavy or anyhing but im not happy with my size either. Most people tell me I don't need to lose weight but there's been people that said I DO. But of course, I'm dong what I want to do and thats all that matters.. I'm an even 144lbs right now & my goal for this year is 130lbs. My goal #in2009 was 142lbs,, which I pretty much almost got down to.. I started at 152lbs :( .. So yeah.. I wanna make that happen.. beginning.. two days ago lol.


So yeah, basically that's all of the things I wanna do.. I mean, besides other things that I want but those things rely on how things play out in the near future,, so I can't be sure if they are even possible yet...

What are YOUR New Years Resolutions?

Why we can't move forward

 Lately, there has been havoc all over my little city. Well, it's always been crimes going on, yeah, but recently, crazy shit has been going down. Like, about two weeks ago, a girl was sexually assaulted on our campus. That was a little to close for comfort for me. Maybe LAST week there was a girl that was raped and beaten in a washroom at Washington University. It's like..WTF is wrong with people?? People are being robbed everyday, killed, and all KINDS of mess. The other day my friend Evan told me she seen a man laying on the sidewalk DEAD! It was freaking broad daylight and theres a man laying on the sidewalk of a busy street with a bullet in his chest. Why the HELL can't we all just get along?

   Well, as much as we want our humanity to be based on peace and love and happiness and shit, it's really based on money and power. Money gets you power... Power gets you money. I mean, simple concept right? Yeah. But with everything going on in the past 2 years, (recession) crime has been rising. People are trying to get extra money the easy way and make a living off of robbing people who are trying to do something to make their OWN damn way. I don't understand it because the more we ROB and KILL our people, the further we push our whole kind down the hole. I think that if you're gunna rob somebody you shouldn't hurt them or rape them at least, damn. I mean, if you hurt the they're probably gunna end up in someone's hospital for 2-3 weeks trying to recover, missing out on days they could have worked and made money. You already robbed them, why stunt their oppurtunity to better themselves. Ugh, I can't effing stand people.

     I tell my mom that I can't stand humans all the time lol. Then she says "Well, what are you?" and I always reply with... "I'm a ninja", lol.. It's like, we keep searching for an EASY way but in reality, there IS no easy way out. You almost always have to go through something to acheive something,, it's the way of life. If we as a united race got together and tried to HELP each other instead of fighting and killing all of the time, maybe we could get some shit done and advance ourselves. This is NOT to say that some people don't try to do this already, because a lot of us do. We try to be nice and helpful and do what we can to help our fellow bothers and sisters but too many times a person will have had bad experiences with people who take advantage of the kindness we try to deliver. You can't win for losing anymore. Our people have developed really fucked up mentalities that won't let them see past themselves.

   I REALLY wish we could wake up man...We cannot move forward if half of the population is moving backwards.  If we can't save ourselves, who will?

Video Phone Spoof

Lmao. I though this was so funny. Dude, I LOVE Lady Gaga.. She's so freaking odd and it sticks out so much and I think it's a GOOD thing. People wonder about me because I actually like the ish she does.. but SO WHAT. She's DOPE!

Jay-Z x Mr. Hudson = A Great Song && Video

This ish is AWESOME!

Ninja Assassin

Ninja Assassin was DOPE!And the main character, Raizo, played by Rain was super sexy maaan! I already have a weird fascination with ninjas so i HAD to go see it. It was worth the money and I'd go pay to see it again. For now, all I can do is dream about Raizo lol.

Oh Lord... If I wasn't at work, I would've screamed when I saw this. Whew!!

Where has Charles Hamilton been?

My favorite Charles Hamilton song was "November 10th". It was an awesome song besides many others. But I haven't heard from him in awhile.. until now.. It's ALRIGHT. Look dowwwn below.

"Loserville"

-Charles Hamilton-

Kid Cudi x MGMTx Ratatat

I love this song.... That is all that needs to be said...

"Pursuit Of Happiness"

-Kid Cudi Ft MGMT & Ratatat-

UKnowBigSean..Right?

By now, everybody should know this dude. His music is fantastical and fresh. If you STILL don't know him and his music by now, shame on YOU! But, I GUESS I can forgive you if you go HERE and educate yourself lol.

Kanye Getting all of the LOVE

I wanna congratulate my man Kanye!!! He recently made Entertainment Weekly's top ten albums of the decade list. And guess what?? He came in at number ONE with his album, "The College Dropout". He ALSO had the honor to accept a much bigger honor from Rolling Stone. He's part of the Rolling Stone's artists of the decade. That's whats up. He deserves that though, he's a wonderful artist. Full of creativity and G.O.O.D Music ;) .. speaking of that... wait for the next blog post..

Wowza, Wowza, Wowwwwza!

My boo Rihanna is at it again. Check out her pictures for the most recent GQ magazine! Jeez! This  Rihanna rain just won't let up!!

YummY

So the "Hard" video by Rihanna featuring Young Jeezy premieres on Thursday. You have NO idea how hype i got after seeing this preview! I seen a BUNCH of pictures before but this did it for me. Take a gander..

"Hard"

-Sneak Peek-

Rihanna on Saturday Night Live!

Yay! She was on last night.. Watch her do a skit, perform her hit single "Russian Roulette" and "Hard, Ft. Young Jeezy" =) *I'm all smiles* !! lol

Here's the Digital Short =)

Here's the Russian Roulette Performance

And last but not least, The "Hard" Performance. The end is so cute!

What the.... is going onnnn

Hey luvvies. I shan't go into the gory details but I am ONE CONFUSED CHICK right now. SO much has went down in the past 12 hours or so.. I can barely comprehend. My mind is moving so fast and I can't handle it.  As I type this, the words are blurry to me. No, I don't wear glasses either. I have 20/20 vision, thank you ! =) but yesterday, i did some research to figure out why the HECK this happens all of the time. It usually begins with me having a slight headache then feeling lightheaded.. after that, I have the HARDEST time focusing and seeing straight. It's been going on for maybe 2 1/2 months now.

Sooo yah, i researched a little. I'm a fairly healthy female but what i found out is that I'm probably not getting enough iron. Not having enough of it causes these symptoms that I have, which are the symptoms for Iron Deficiency Anemia. Also, as I stated in an earlier post, I drink ALOT of tea. I'm craving some right now!! Drinks such as tea and coffee decrease the body ability to absorb iron from our foods and I believe the right there is my problem. It makes sense and all the pieces of my problem fit together perfectly. I also see that that whole light headed blurred vision thing happens when i'm mad, or sad or something.

Eh, hopefully i get over it one day because it's annoying that it happens randomly, like in class or something... Blah. i wanna learn Tai chi... yeah, that was random.. but im doing Yoga tonight.. Ttyl  tweeps!

And so it begins....

Ok, so I'm beginning my official Weight loss challenge today. The weight loss plan of course. I try to watch what I eat anyways and have cut many things from my diet, but now it's seriously going into effect.

So, I actively do the tea diet but not really heavy yet. I drink tea all day to supress most cravings which works pretty well for the most part. So now,, I will be incorporating my calorie limit..  I got a personalized guide to how many calories I should be taking in to promote weight loss.. What u currently eat is somewhere inbetween the "Fat Loss" column and the "Extreme Fat Loss" column. So yeah, I've decided to go by the extreme results.. You can go make your personalized calorie intake schedule HERE.

So basically, this calculator gives you different intake amounts each day to "trick" your body. Because I know that your body notices when you aren't taking in many calories anymore and it goes into survival mode and actually holds on tighter to the fat that you currently have. So this method tricks your body out of that. It's a really good system..

I keep a journal of what I eat and though i don't write in it EVERYDAY, I do it enough. As long as you can record a few days in a row you should be okay. You want to look at your eating patterns and evaluate As to why you ate everything you did. So when you record meals, snacks, && whatnots, make sure you ALSO record how you FEEL at the time, the time of day, if you were hungry, if you were bored, etc.. It helps and you'll see when you tend to start eating. Don't flow any calorie restrictions for year first few days that you record your eating habits, just go with the flow. Days later youshoukd start planning your meals ahead of time and start counting calories and anticipating excercise.

I know that I often eat out of boredom (horrible, I know). So today I'm going to do two workouts,, you know,, tart it out pretty easy. I did an hour of pilates this morning which is AWESOME and will be doing a 30 minute session if Hip Hop abs later today. My meal plaN for the day includes tea and water as the only acceptable drinks. I can drink as much As possible of that good stuff. As far as food goes, I'm going to the mall so I'm probably going to eat there. Now, I usually buy some Panda Express bit recently I've discovered Habachi-San. I prefer Chinese food over Japanese food but Japanese food is waaayy healthier than Chinese food. Hibachi- Sans food isn't breaded or drowned in very heavy sauces.. So my plan is to get a shrimp plate with steamed rice.. (I like steamed over fried most of the time).. It also cones with steamed veggies.. It's so good and not a heavy dish at all.. && its yummilicious too!


I usually weigh 144lbs but this holiday weekend made me out to be 146lbs lol. So... Yeah,, my current goal is to reach 130lbs.

So I figure I can wing it all day with tea & water until about 3pm and then eat. Then tea & water until I workout again,, around 6 or 7,, && another thing Im going to do is go to sleep early.. Staying up late at night also makes you want to eat like a maniac. So yeah.. Let's see how this goes.. I shall report back on this my little HEARTS !! :)

Happy BirthDay Jay-Z!!!

My guy Shawn is 40 years old!!!!!! 
You go Boy!

h.NAOTO x Hello Kitty Goth

Dude.. I LOVE this stuff! i personally think Hello Kitty is a beast anyways so yeah.. This stuff is super cute and it's not very expensive. Daizyoobu desu nee!! .(That's good right?!)

Check out all of the items HERE

Cute Kitty

This is a super cute Coin Bank.. I want one... I'm totally gunna order this

O Snap, Va$htie!

So, I've been reading Va$htie's blog for about 7 months && I LOVE her. I think I've blogged about her before.  Well, now she has finally finished and has a full site including the blog. it's Dope, Go check it out HERE .

TRAVEL!

This is going to be quick, but i just want to let you all know that you should at LEAST, one time in your life, go out of the country. Of course, I haven't been out of this place yet but I plan to VERY soon. ;) .. It'd just be an awesome experience, no matter where you go. Like, we KNOW there are places outside of our little towns but until we go explore them, we have NO idea what's out there. Any out of country experience can't be anything below amazing. So, I encourage everybody TODAY to look into some ways to get up and OUT. Even if for a few days, give yourself that opportunity. If you're in school and they have a study abroad program you should really look into it that way. That way you have a chance of having some of it paid for and/or you'll probably be able to go with other people at your school. If you aren't in school, you can look into jobs in other countries. There's work all the way from teaching children english to working in the rainforests of Costa Rica. Just do a little research and see what you find. With all of these WONDERFUL resources, there's NO excuse as to why you shouldn't try.

Good Luck !